She Never Takes Off That Funeral Dress

toawknavngdead @ 2004-09-19T17:13:00

2004-09-20T00:07:43Z

_glamorama

thats my new LJ if you didnt already know.

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-29T00:50:00

2004-08-29T07:44:18Z

new livejournal.

add me please.

_glamorama

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-28T21:50:00

2004-08-29T04:45:04Z

Don't you know that I need you now, more than ever?

If only you knew...

OCEANIC

2004-08-29T03:31:05Z

...as he teetered on the edge, with his eyes rolled back, jet streams criss crossing over his head, the sun laid his wavering shadow over the surface of the water. his mind spun with tangled thoughts and his legs shook in his advance towards the watery redemption...

... the wind blew in his ears and his face streamed with tears... smoke rose behind his eyes from internal incinerations. he was breaking up...

...suddenly, everything slowed- his faltering limbs steadied, the tears ceased to flow and seems to dry quickly in the warm sun, the wind dropped to an imperceptible hum, the boiling blood which choked his insides shrank back into rythmic circulation, and somewhere deep inside it all collapsed...

...light flashed in his minds eye and a series of quick but distinct images proceeded through him in rapid succession...

... the jet streams trailed away into nothingness as his body spun lazily through the warm air. this was his direction as he'd always known it, ever downward, approaching an uncertain void (uncertain, but surely more significant than the dull throb of his current existence)...

... as the surface of the water drew closer he closed his eyes and felt it all fall away...

...with the crack of his body on the surface everything splintered into it's final destination- nothingness seeped in from all sides and his mind swam in every direction, freeing him of thought, of worry, of horror. his blood drifted into the depths or circled towards the surface and blew off into the breeze...

...this is what he'd always known- a promise of something greater just beyond (or below) the water's final horizon...

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-25T23:18:00

2004-08-26T06:12:14Z

1. Geometry cp, Sabillo
2. World History Cp, Carey
3. Spanish, Bernal
4. Hon. Bio, Ghazalli
5. Int. Drama, Graz
6. Hon. Eng. 10, Graf

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-23T23:45:00

2004-08-24T06:40:30Z

so i was talking with my mom telling her the hair color im gonna get.
and she says "isnt that a little... gay?"
and i say "no, its hardcore..."

and my mom goes "whats the difference?"

ZINGER!!!

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-23T23:31:00

2004-08-24T06:26:14Z

Ok, this chick really thinks I’m Phil… she is so gullible, this is funny shit. What a stupid bitch…

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If this is really Phil Anselmo.... you kick fucking ass....
I can't wait to see you at OzzFest this year.... and when I seen Down in concert like 2 or three years ago in Pittsburgh it was the fucking shit!

Jamie

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Fucken right this is Phil, you gotta respect talent... I died 3 times, so you should worship me, I am your God, and you know it.
Know anyone who wants to fight me?

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When did you die three times?

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long story... lets just say it involved me, a gay bar, a ferret, and way too much to drink... that was ONE time.
The other 2 times were when I was being too metal... I would have to kill you if I told you what happened...
so do you know anyone who wants to fight me?

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Are you going to add me to your firends list??
Well thats kinda cool I guess.... So are you pumped about ozzfest this year? Nope cant say I know anyone stupid enough to wanna fight you.... :o)

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No, I'm not fuckin pumped for ozzfest, I mean, you gotta respect, but none of the bands are fucken Brutal enough for me. If any of them give me shit, I'm just gonna say "what, you wanna fucken fight me?"

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Dude.... how are you not going to be excited for a concert?!?! You get to see all of youf fans and you even said in an interview that you loved the rush and seeing all of the fans......

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I fucken lied...

this is where i cry when i watch the movie.

2004-08-23T22:18:43Z

I hate the way the way you talk to me

And the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots

And the way you read my mind

I hate you so much it makes me sick

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you’re always right

I hate when you lie

I hate it when you make my laugh

Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you’re not around

And the fact that you didn’t call

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you

Not even close

Not even a little bit

Not even at all

Outkast lyrics continue to amaze me... I can identify so well...

2004-08-23T07:36:03Z

"I can't read minds but I can read yours... I think they're saying they want to POUR... YOUR... YOURSELF ALL OVER ME?

What are you thinking?

I could be wrong but PUPILS DON'T LIE... and if they do, by God, they mush fry...
FRY?
You know, like an electric chair... the way you stare (Yea, I'm there), you've committed a crime... and I AM THE VICTIM..."

randomness about me

2004-08-22T08:10:13Z

if you havent noticed... im starting to use the phrase "slays" more often... like "dude, predator SLAYS" "Dillinger escape plan SLAYS" "my hot ass SLAYS".... i am basically trying to be as BRO as possible.

Predator is my fucken hero, i mean, dude, he's invisible, he looks kick ass, he like 10 feet tall, he's from another planet, AND he's the king of the jungle... he should be a rapper, no one would wanna fuck with that dude, cuz he's actually a real gangsta and he SLAYS.

I love andy DICK and the assistant.

I am a Myspace JUNKIE, my Phil myspace SLAYS, the plastiKz myspace SLAYS too.

I NEED TO JOIN A BAND.

My heart shit is coming up... that will definitely NOT SLAY... wish me luck, i could fucken die. jk, but if shit goes wrong they will have to do a emeergency buzz saw through my chest to pull out the shit in there. BUZZ SAWS SLAY.

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-22T00:03:00

2004-08-22T07:00:31Z

so today i had nothing to fucking do, i was so bored, all i did was be EMO, watch some krazy movie on Trio called like Blood Simple? watch headbangers ball, listen to Dillinger Escape Plan, and be lazy...
BUT, at 830 i get a call from chasen saying he's outside and we are leaving for the movies, so we go see Without A Paddle... it was better than i thought it would be... GARDEN STATE still slays tho.
dude, i went to target today, i wanna but the PREDATOR special edition dvd sooo bad. best dude ever. Predator and Arnie SLAY!!!!

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-21T13:55:00

2004-08-21T20:49:54Z

do you's
1. do you think im cute?
2. do you want to kiss me?
3. do you want to cuddle wit me?
4. do you want to hook up with me?
5. do you think im smart?

are we's
1. are we aquintences?
2. are we friends?
3. are we hook ups?
4. are we in a relationship?
5. are we gonna have kids?

am i's
1. am i smart?
2. am i cute?
3. am i funny?
4. am i cool?
5. am i the most brilliant person ever?...hehe?

would you's
1. would you hang out with me?
2. would you date me?
3. would you be my hook up?
4. would you be my boyfriend/girlfriend?
5. would you have sex with me?

have you ever?
1. have you ever thought about me?
2. have you ever thought there might be an "us"?
3. have you ever thought about about hookin up with me?
4. have you ever found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
5. have you ever wished i were there?

are you's
1. are you done with this survey?
2. are you happy you know me?
3. are you mad at me?
4. are you thinkin bout me?
5. are you going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-20T23:56:00

2004-08-21T06:54:06Z

so tonight i went to see Garden State with gen, brit, and lizzo.
omfg, best movie ever... beside napoleon.
it was so funny, so romantic, so great.

i was written, directed, and starring the dude from scrubs... now thats TALENT.

i realized, after watching this romantic movie, that...

i want to, i mean, NEED TO fall in love

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-20T23:50:00

2004-08-21T06:47:29Z

so i started a myspace making fun of Phil Anselmo from Pantera... its just insane shit in the profile, but i mean, he's a pretty insane guy.

look what this chick sent Phil, and what I/Phil said: If this is really Phil Anselmo.... you kick fucking ass....
I can't wait to see you at OzzFest this year.... and when I seen Down in concert like 2 or three years ago in Pittsburgh it was the fucking shit!

Jamie

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Fucken right this is Phil... You gotta respect talent... I am your God... I've died 3 times.
Do you know anyone who wants to fight me?

BAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!!

here is the link to the myspace, everyone add Phil.
Fucken Phil from Pantera

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/6419273

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-20T10:01:00

2004-08-20T16:58:44Z

tonight im most likely seeing garden state, and napoleon with all my homies. but they need to call me 915 3993.

last night i got CONVERGE and UNEARTH tickets at glasshouse.
today, my mom is picking up my HEAD AUTOMATICA ticket.

im bored.
someone call me to hang out today.

i wanna go to subway.

movies i need to see: garden state, alien vs. predator, napoleon, again.

im trying to arrange a big PREDATOR party. its the best movie of all time. 1) it has arnie in it 2) it has a mega beast 3) people get fucked up!

who wants to have a PREDATOR party?

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-19T22:35:00

2004-08-20T05:29:31Z

going to see napoleon tomoro at amc at 7:50... then maybe Garden State after that.
anyone care to join me?

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-19T20:40:00

2004-08-20T03:36:25Z

i lost everything except this...

and now, the ONE thing that gave me hope, kept me going, all that good shit.... tells me I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH...

Rejection eats away at my dreams

and one thought runs through my head:

"... NOW WHAT?..."

guess that movie quote

2004-08-19T04:43:56Z

Its time to play…

GUESS! THAT! MOVIE! QUOTE!

The person who can name the most movies these quotes are from wins….

A BRAND NEW CAR!!!!

“Darling… light of my life… I’m not gonna hurt you… you didn’t let me finish my sentence…I SAID, I’m not gonna hurt you… I’m just gonna bash your brains in”
“Yeah, there’s a butt-load of gangs at this school… One of them asked me to be in it cause I’m pretty good with a bow-staff..”
“Do you know what Ed Gein said about women? – serial killer, Wisconsin, 1950s- He said ‘When I see a pretty girl walking down the street, I think 2 things… one part of me thinks I’d like to take her out, talk to her, treat her all NICE, and SWEET..’” “What did the other part of Ed think?” “What her head would look like on a stick… hahahahaha”
“Surely, you must not be serious” “I am serious… and don’t call me Shirley”
“You don’t know where I’ve been, Lou… You don’t know where I’ve been!!!!”
“You got knocked the FUCK OUT!”
“ Sir…. Those fags make me wanna puke my fucking guts out.” “….Me too, Son… Me too”
“You’re one ugly motherfucker”
“They called me Mr. Glass…”
“Ah, shit, you got a white driver?”
“I eat pieces of shit like you for breakfast” “… You eat pieces of shit for breakfast?”
“Whoa, this is HEAVY” “There’s that word again… HEAVY… why are things so heavy in the future? Is there a problem with the earth’s gravitational pole?”
“Wait, hold on listen…” “What the fuck was that?!” “THAT WAS MY SKULL!!! Hahahah”
“Wanting people to listen, you can’t just tap them on the shoulder anymore… you have to hit them with a sledgehammer… only then do you have their strict attention”
“Which wallet is yours?” “The one that says BAD MOTHERFUCKER”

Let’s see who wins….

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-18T21:08:00

2004-08-19T04:04:36Z

George Michael is a PIMP whose ALL about the ladies... "I WANT YOUR SEX"??? You think he's singing to a guy?

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-18T21:07:00

2004-08-19T04:02:06Z

I'M BACK

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-18T07:09:00

2004-08-18T05:12:39Z

“Have you made any redundancies?”
“I gave a speech, only this morning, to my staff, assuring them there would not be cutbacks at this branch, and that there certainly wouldn’t be redundancies.”
“Well why on earth would you do that?”
“Why? Ooh, a little word that I think’s important in management called morale.”
“Well surely it’s gonna be worse for morale in the long run when there are going to be redundancies and you’ve told people there won’t be.”
“...... they won’t remember.”

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-18T06:44:00

2004-08-18T04:46:42Z

im at the airport, about to embark on my 24 hours of traveling. argh!
ok, so seriously, EVERYONE call me wednesday night to say WHAZUP. ill be home at like 730.

626 915 3993

do it!

who wants to hang?

mama, im comin' home...

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-17T12:54:00

2004-08-17T10:54:26Z

i could be an organ donor the way i give up my heart

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-17T12:53:00

2004-08-17T10:53:56Z

went to the modern art museum.... im inspired.

toawknavngdead @ 2004-08-16T13:41:00

2004-08-16T11:47:14Z

whoa man, i wanna get home so bad. i cant wait to get back. i have to go pick up all my tickets for shows when i get back. then i have to just chill.

anyone wanna go to the movies wif me and gen and liz and see napoleon???

i got a new HIM cd, LOVE METAL, its great.

im getting so fat. all the food is too good over here.

dude... its 26 hours of traveling on wednesday... shit.

ive read 2 books while on vacation... hubert selby jr. SONG OF THE SILENT SNOW... and ´doug coupland... HEY NOSTRADAMUS! both very good. but i need a new book, im so bored.

ive been listening to radiohead everynight to help me get to sleep.

i just realized how BAD my brothers music choices are.. his fav. bands are Senses Fail, Thursday, and New Found Glory.... arghh! gay!

shows coming up that i hope to go to... head automatica, blood brothers, converge, unearth.

i ordered a Sinai Beach shirt, its cool, its got like a skeleton angel, its such a bro shirt.

well ya, i gotta go, hit me up foos!